Baby love

Well, I'm still pregnant. (Yay!) And I have an ultrasound on the 23rd. So that's exciting. :)
It still seems so unreal. I'm looking at double strollers and talking about names.. and its still so hard to imagine that we will really get this new little person in our lives. Ainsley is our whole world. I love her so much that sometimes it actually, literally hurts, it swells up inside of me and I feel like there's not room for it in my body. It's hard to imagine having double that love. It's 3am (yes, I'm turning into an insomniac or something), I turned off the tv and all the lights and then went to sneak a peak at my little girl before I went to bed, a nightly habit. Today had been a crazy day, I had to go to the U in the morning for an appt and left her here with Tom (awesome perks of a hubby who works from home). I got back in time to feed her lunch and put her down for a nap. As soon as she woke up it was time for me to leave for a girls night out with my two college roommies who are also preg. We went maternity shopping. :) (Got a super cute pair of jeans.. pic later perhaps if ya'll want to see my awesome booty, haha) It was a blast, and so good to see them again.

But when I got home she was in bed, and as I watched Ainsley laying there sleeping I realized how little I had seen her today, and I just missed her. I had to stop myself from gathering her up into my arms and sitting in the rocking chair for a while. Even now I'm thinking it wouldn't be that bad.. she'd go back to sleep.. lol. Probably not a good habit to get into. I don't want to be your typical sappy mormon housewife here... but I love being a stay at home mommy for her. Someday I'd like to get my masters and work in a field I enjoy, but these moments are so fleeting.. I can't imagine missing them for the world. I'm so excited to welcome someone to our little family, it's felt like there was someone missing.. I'm excited.. and nervous and happy and terrified and full of so many emotions. How do people handle this??

Ok, I promise this will not become a pregnancy blog.. but tonight my heart was so full.. and that's one of the reasons I have this new blog... for overwhelming feelings and thoughts that I need to get out at 3am so I can go to sleep. Well, thanks for listening to me again, all you lovely ladies and the vast universe out there that I send this all out into. Goodnight.