I'm a big ol' whiner today.. so feel free to ignore me. I am just not having as much fun with this pregnancy as I did with Ainsley. I feel way more sick, and I think last time everything was so new, and I was so beyond thrilled that we finally got preg that I took every little thing as a badge of honor or something. This time I'm being a grump. I feel like, ok, I've done this.. lets get it over with. I just remember loving being pregnant. I felt all cute and happy and fulfilled. Now I just feel like me, except tired, nauseated and cranky. Maybe I just am not remembering correctly.. who knows. I feel so guilty.. one day this child will find out that I did not enjoy being pregnant with them like I did with their sister. I already have favorites! I'm a bad mom.
I'll be 10 weeks Monday, and I just keep telling myself that once I get out of this trimester things will look up. I had my first real appt last week and my midwife (yep, I'm going with a midwife again). was examining me and discovered that some muscles that part so your uterus can grow never went back together after Ains, and that's adding to the fact that I already look preg. I'm trying to blame it on the 'i popped early 2nd time around' thing. But whatever it is, I already feel big and gross.
Ok, cranky vent over. Sorry to be a downer again. I'll try to post something silly and happy later.
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If it helps any I disliked being pregnant every time and I am on my third pregnancy. I don't think there is anything wrong to not find joy in puking your guts up and feeling big and gross. I feel like pregnancy is more a trial that you go through to get to the good stuff. The baby is my reward for suffering. :)
ReplyDeleteYou already have a favorite? LOL It's good to experience BOTH kinds of pregnancies so you can have empathy for others and so that other women don't hate you for having great pregnancies! I think your hormones get worse with each one so you have a great excuse to be grumpy . . what's mine?
ReplyDeleteyou were grumpy bc you were missing my wedding. but i still love you!
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